it’s hard to describe what these emotions are. a moment you’re calm, another you’re burning with so much angst that you start to terrify yourself. today, do you sit calmly? grateful for life and people. love and tranquility filling your soul. or is it a day to rage and break? body and things. the new blade looks exceptionally shiny tonight.
how do you make sense of all that goes on inside you? the anger. the despair. the joy. the hate. the love. for you and for others. how easily you oscillate between emotions.
everyone talks about self-love. like it’s the prescribed cure for self-loathe. like it’s a piece of cloth you buy in the market. like it’s an entity you encounter while taking a stroll. like it’s something you force on yourself.
teach me how to love this body. this body with its beautiful heart and dark soul. this body devoid of all contours and dips. this body that lacks the softness that is said to make a woman. this body with its repulsive flaws and tumultuous soul. this body carved and branded with the sleekiest of blades. this body familiar with hurt. and fear. and anguish. this body with a heart that loves fiercely. this body that is compassionate. this body that knows friendship. and love. and trust. and kindness. teach me how to love this body.
November 25, 2019
Hello. Assalaam alaykum!
This is another piece I wrote last year.
PS- I really appreciate feedbacks and comments. It’d be kind of you to leave one if you can. ❤
Till we meet again, bi idhniLlah.